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drunk__offyourlips
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Expertise: theres nothing you can do, that can save me anymore. everyone's predictable. my heart, has been ripped away. im sick of little girls trying to grow up so fast. cherish every moment of your childhood. before the lies come, before the drama, before the sex, before the rumors, before the heartbreak, before it all. some people emotionally never grow up. it's life. everyone will turn on you, everyone will backstab you, and everyone will leave you. at the end of the day, you should know, that you can only trust yourself, because your the only one who will always be there. all guys wan't, is sex. thats the only reason they do cute things, thats the reason they tell you want you want to hear. they dont have feelings, or emotions. none of them. someday, you will meet someone, and you will think hes different, and you will put all of your trust, and hope, and faith, into knowing, hes different. but he will end up baing everything you swore he wasnt because you will see him for what he really is.
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Member Since:
12/10/2005
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| i'd like to believe somewhere deep inside me, that he will grow up one day. that he will realise how hes just a little boy inside. i'd really love to believe he will grow up. but i just dont think that will never happen.
to put it as blunt as possible, you ripped away apart of me inside. im not the same. im not that happy, same little girl. you can say im being dramatic about all of this. i don't care. maybe i am. i just cant take it, that i let this happen. like you said, i asked for this. and i did, i asked for what happened, but i didn't ask for you to stop talking to me, and be an asshole about it afterwords. but i guess MY fault right...?! i let myself get used like this. i just hope, someday, i can just stop thinking about this, and you. and just not even remember. move on with my life, and laugh when i think about all of this. thats all i really wan't. maybe someday, you can tell me how you've grown up, and realised how it wasn't all just my fault . and yeah, i miss you, and i want you back. but i need to give up on the thought of you, because this, this isn't good for me. the false hope, is killing me inside. i want you to be something, that you completly aren't. and i can't change you. your immature, and afraid of commitment. i hope you grow up someday, i really do.
&& you don't mean
nothing at all to me.
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| im empty inside.
you ripped everything away from me.
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i dont want to need anymore.
i realised, that no matter what i do from here on out, it will not fix my heart. because i can't take back all of the things they've done to me. but i know, i can try awful hard to move on. i cant take there faults back. maybe i just give up. for a year or two. or until i can find someone, who can fix what theyve done. not by takeing it back, but by makeing me forget, little by little. by auchley staying with me. and makeing me complete. someone who can take my hurt away. because i will stay by myself, until someone can fix me. because i can't fix myself anymore. | | |
| Through the hardships and struggles, I feel you by my side. Holding so tight. the hardest blow nor the the deepest cut couldn't break us apart. The rain flows downhill as my life does at times, but the sun shines through and dries it all up the way you do my worries and troubles. you deal with my problems, my frustrations, and my sorrow. yet you find a way to make me smile. theres some vibe about you that puts me in this mood. no word, no amount of words, no meaning of any words can define the feelings I feel when I'm with you. I let my guard down and take my armor off, to be with you. and you keep me strong through the toughest situations. I sleep with one eye open, not to watch out for myself but because I cant help but watch how beautiful you are when you sleep, and I'm hooked on the feeling I get when I feel your heart beat next to mine and how my body relaxes when our breathing becomes synchronized.. and I think of my life and our best times. we breathe together because we are one. its all one motion in slow motion. youre always on my mind, and knew then you were my blessing. I can sleep peaceful now. I feel you here. I can sleep peaceful now. I feel your heart. I can sleep peaceful now. you are my deepest breath. oh, I can sleep peaceful now. because slow motion is better than no motion. my emotions rise high, for the you. the slightest reminder of you makes me think of the difference youve made in my life. You came and changed my whole life. In my head, in my heart its so clear now. You'll forever be a part of me. I know you will. I'm somewhere I never thought I'd be. I'm in love, and you complete me. and now I see its so unbelievable. I'm hooked to it and can't let it go. I must confess. you are the rest of me. you are me. you are my everything. and if and when god ever blesses me enough, to even believe I'm worthy enough to find that girl, that's exactly what I'll say to him. | | |
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